I cannot seem to focus right now, or ever to be honest. Well at least when it is required to focus I can never buckle down.
I’m currently listening to Scar Tissue by the Red Hot Chili Peppers, if you do not know it you happen to be lame…sorry. I love the lyrics in this song probably more than it is healthy. I relate all too well to the theme of the song and the emotions that it displays. Being alone sucks. “Scar Tissue that I wish you saw…” What else is new, other than living day by day with lacerations covering my life that no one may ever see.
I don’t mean to be depressing or sad but I’m stressed and just need to vent. I was not made to be by myself and it is frustrating to force myself out of social activities and such. I feel like I have to explain everything to everyone and to say the least it gets annoying. I deal though. What I seem to lose my cool over though is not being able to isolate myself. Again, I deal. This isn’t some social experiment or outcry for attention, I can promise that much. This is something I need, A new mindset, A new focus, A renewed passion.
Ephesians 2:8…BGTF… It won’t be in vain.