Who do I become?

I wish the title of this post was the question asked of graduating seniors. Who do you plan on becoming? While an acceptable answer is Chuck Norris, its not entirely what I am trying to get at


This question is less about meeting your potential and more about coming to terms with who you were created to be, a cherished child of God.

As sweet and heart-warming as that sentiment may be, though, I wonder if we all know what exactly that entails? When I was in undergrad, the world seemed like a bad place, but my campus was seemingly safe. I am sad to admit that I resided in a bubble of sorts, well most of my friends did too.

Maybe you were a commuter or maybe you did everything in your power spend time off campus and involve yourself with the community at large. Either way, after graduating your peer group experiences a mass exodus. Some stay nearby, some move back to their homes and still some move out of state or to other countries. Your community tends to have a few drastic changes after college and if the people in the community does not change, limits of time and energy will surely be a new reality.

For me after graduation, it was shocking how quickly relationships went from being the easiest thing for me to manage to the hardest to cultivate in a matter of months.


Maintaining friendships became hard and making new friendships in new cities felt near impossible at first, for me. I remember being in a bit of a tizzy for a while. I didn’t understand how being Christian (a supremely relational existence) and being lonely could be reconciled. I knew it was part of following Christ to be in community, but between work and cooking for myself I didn’t know how to maintain healthy relationships all that well. And relationships were only one part of becoming an adult! How could I ever do the other parts?


Our culture and this world has put a lot of emphasis on being adults. And we seem to function in a society that teaches us how to learn and go to school well, but not always how to live well. And becoming an adult sometimes feels like this, also this is one of my favorite videos ever so I have no choice but to include it:

What I would like to argue is that who you become has little to do with what you actually do. Titles come and go. As I mentioned in my last post you might decide in your fifties to go for a Master’s degree in theology, who really knows. But who you are really doesn’t change. Maybe what you are passionate about changes, but who you are at your essence as a child of God does not alter. And if you are leaning into that identity you will desire to grow into that adopted child more and more. So what does it look like to lean into an identity formed by God? In a child you can often see the best parts of their parents, its not so different with God as your parent. Here are three aspects of who God is that can inform you of the type of adult you plan on becoming. God is:


God is three persons in one. The Godhead, Holy Spirit and Christ. In nature God is relational and God asks His children to take part in the same. While I mentioned above about how hard community gets after college, that doesn’t mean it gets worse, sometimes you just have to work harder for it. Be the type of friend you desire to be in relationship with. It took me a bit to realize that I didn’t have to wait for friends to be vulnerable or deep with me, I realized that no matter how scary I can be the one to initiate a trusting and intimate relationship. Check this article for more on the subject.


God is just. Justice is on God’s heart always. So as a full-fledged adult out of college now, you are fully participating in society and culture (I know its silly because you totally were participating in culture before you graduated). Now is the time to think about what breaks your heart and better yet what breaks God’s heart. Is it Human Trafficking? Disabilities? Prisoners? Racism? The list sadly goes on and on and hopefully more than one of these topics do break your heart. Now out of college, how will you participate (if you aren’t already) in healing the wounds from the sin in this world? God does not settle for a status quo of pain, will you speak for the voiceless (Proverbs 31:8-10)?


I put these two together because I personally believe they are inseparable. I think true forgiveness is not rushed, but is patient. Think briefly on the patience and forgiveness that God extends to us. I wonder if God’s forgiveness would dry up without patience for us to be redeemed, to draw nearer to Our Creator. The human existence is a marathon, not a sprint and God is in for the long haul as we must aspire to be for the world around us.

If you were to ask me the question, who do I want to become? I would say a man after God’s own heart in every way. A man with the conviction to look evil in its eyes and say, “not in God’s Kingdom!”

Some practical suggestions on how to become a person after God’s heart:

  1. Don’t spend too much time church shopping. Choose one, settle down and begin seeing the brokenness just within those walls. One of the best places to practice patience and forgiveness is within the walls of a church. And allow others to be patient and forgive you.
  2. Try new things. I know, I know you have heard this before, but I have seen my heart ignited in ways I counted imagine because I tried something uncomfortable since I graduated college. I thought I had it all planned out, thats a story for another time though.
  3. Find “adultier” adults that you admire. Those you believe are leaning into their identity designed by a loving God. Learn from them and also, teach those younger than you.

P.S. Check out this awesome resource on life after college from InterVasity.

Much Love


30 Days of Writing: Day Five

Day 5.

Today I wrote a devotional for the college students I work with. I emailed it to them earlier today and will be also posting it here as my Day 5 writing post. Enjoy


1 John 3:1-3

See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. 2 Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when Christ appears,[a] we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is. 3 All who have this hope in him purify themselves, just as he is pure.


I have a lot of favorite verses and sections of scripture, but the one above is one of my absolute favorites. I want to tell you a short tale before we begin with this scripture.


There once was a young lady. She woke up one morning and decided to go for a walk , she had a beautiful trail right near her home. As she stepped out of her front door she took in the fresh air, she listened to the birds chirping and she let the sun’s rays coat her skin. She began her brisk walk.


It wasn’t long before her walk led her to a fork in the trail. At the intersection of the for there was a single willow tree and under it was an older woman leaning against the tree.


Our young lady paused briefly as she approached the fork, nodded at the woman and chose at random which direction to continue on. As she stepped forward the woman moved from under the tree and stood in front of the young lady.


She was startled to say the least. The older woman looked her in the eyes and spoke:

“Who are you and where are you going?”


Our young lady was not sure this old woman was even justified a response, but she answered:

“My name is Jessica, and I am just on a walk, I am enjoying being outside.”

She attempted to continue on her walk.


The old woman stepped in front of Jessica again and asked again:

“Who are you and where are you going?”


Now slightly frustrated Jessica answered the old woman again:

“I am a student, I go to college in town and I am just out for a walk.”

She attempted to press on.


Again the old woman stepped in her way and asked:

“Who are you and where are you going?”


Jessica was now angry,

“I have no idea what you are asking or why you even care! I don’t know what you want me to say, what do you even mean by asking who I am? I told you my name, I told you what I do and where I am from, can’t you just let me pass?”


The old woman had a smile on her face,

“Darling, how will you ever know where you are going in life if you do not know who you are?”


Jessica was at a loss for words as the last question of the old woman cut her deeply. She sunk her head, turned around and walked home….


I love this story. I love telling it to people and I love to hear their reaction to it.

So here is my question, do you know who you are? Do you recognize the core of your identity that will never change?


1 John 3 makes it clear that if we are in Christ then we are children of God! John recognizes that a fact like that should be world changing. What love God Lavishes on us by calling us his children!


In this story, while Jessica could not think of a good response to the old woman, you have the ultimate reply that will never change.


Who you are is a Son or Daughter of God. At the core of your existence you are someone’s child, more importantly you are God’s beloved child. There is no changing this. It is the only aspect of who you are that will never be fluid. And this simple yet life changing fact reveals to you where you are going.


When you know who you are and you know that you are a child of God, knowing where you are going becomes incredibly easier. God spells it out. You are headed to His arms, where His children belong.


Thoughts to Ponder:

What does being a son or daughter of God say about every other aspect in your life?

Do you believe that if you were to shed all the layers of your personality that you would find at the core a child of God?

Who are you?

Where are you going?